Noticing the Collateral Beauty

Life is a tapestry woven with joys and sorrows. That's a true observation of the balance of life. It has not been an easy road for this sensitive person with a big heart.

I was my mother's sensitive child. I was quiet. As I grew I developed a strong sense of right and wrong. My mother told me several times that I wore my heart on my sleeve and that I shouldn't do that. She said that I needed to toughen up to survive in the world.

I am an introvert by nature and have a strong inner life. I share my personal insecurities with people I am close to because that takes immense trust. I am a private, sometimes prideful person.

I love fiercely.

Since my mother died, I have chosen to say yes to life. The conversations I had with her before she died helped me understand my daughters and also to move on from being stock in limbo post divorce. I have been able to extricate myself from being enmeshed with my ex in an unhealthy way. Respectful boundaries have been reestablished. I was also able to release my relationship with a partner I was seeing off and on which was no longer working.

So, when my I met husband and he opened himself up to me, I embraced it. When he asked me out, I said sure, why not.. when? That was the best decision I made in many years. I have the life and the love that I have always deserved. 

It's the collateral beauty.